So, I'm gonna get a little personal on the blog today and let you know what's been going on in the studio and in my sometimes crazy, messed up head.
I took a small break at the beginning of the year, when my baby boy was born. One thing that my husband and I wanted for our family was for me to be able to spend as much time with our son as possible, we didn't want him to have to go to a daycare setting and since we could live off my husbands salary, we decided that he would be my priority while still running the business at the same time. Did I mention that my husband is also in full time school while working a job and a half? Yeah, we are crazy busy like that...
I had imagined in my head this great time with my little boy and then just picking up right where I left off upon getting the studio back up and running. However, it was a lot harder re-opening the studio and making sales again than I thought it would be. Business wise, it was probably comparable to when I just started out, but now I had less time and a baby to take care of as well not to mention sleepless nights and that being a mommy is just sometimes hard.
Honestly, sales have just been slow and I've had a hard time with that. Last week it all came to a lot of tears. It seemed as if nothing I did was working, and all in one day I messed up two orders and my computer and printer decided to take a sick day, which meant taking my orders to Office Depot for printing (and I HATE doing that!). My amazing husband took care of the little guy all day and helped me out during nap times. But still what should have only taken a little over an hour ended up taking all day and we were finally finished by around 10 at night. I just cried, I had been struggling with the lack of sales and now I was really questioning whether I was suppose to continue working or completely throw in the towel.
But, like normal, talking to my husband got my head back on track. While I was laying in bed crying his first question was simple. "Have you prayed about it?" and I kinda sidestepped the question, because my answer would have to have been 'no'. You see, I have this little problem where I think I have to do everything myself. Perfectly. Often I have a hard time accepting help from even my husband. And when things don't work, when sales are slow, I take it as a personal failure. I'm not good enough. But we weren't meant to live like that. I am not meant to carry the world on my shoulders, it is too heavy for just me alone.
So slowly, a little bit more every day, I am letting go of my life and trusting it completely in God's hands. He created me anyway so who better to trust my life with? Besides He knows everything (which is a really big plus). I am accepting help from my husband, although he's not really into weddings or art he is great to bounce ideas off of and help with the business'y side of things.
So, that was a really long post to say that Sarah Coats Designs will be staying open. We are working on a complete rebranding as a way to focus in on where we will be taking the business in the future. And we took a HUGE leap of faith last night when we decided to expand our advertising to where we have never been before (more on that later).
So pray for my little family, keep following our/my progress, (I am hoping to be better about updating the blog), and trust God with everything, He cares about the little stuff too.
Hope you have a great week!
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